I'm not sure I'm uses to travel again. Here I am, back on top of the clouds, looking down, wishing that my final destination is going to be a bunch of welcoming faces. ♥ I really needed this time out from life. Hello California, shall we get reacquainted?
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This here, is Tyrion.
We are both alike in many ways. I admire him because of his courage. I admire him because of his intelligence. I admire the way he plays the game of politics. He's not that bad-looking either. And I know, that he has a good heart. He's a funny drunk, and everything he says just makes sense. I rarely do man crush mondays. But I'll do it today since he totally kicked ass in the last episode of GOT. Long may he live. #Mancrushmonday #Hard "Soulmate" poem by Nadine DoradoHe knows her from the inside out He knows if she's troubled He knows where she hides He's her only sense of comfort Her calm through the storm And even through a shipwreck, They find a way back through each other. She knows his heart She knows his very soul She sees what nobody else sees She feels him from far away She is his companion She is the fire to his element She is the balance When she is troubled, her memories fade away But he always comes back and reminds her, Even if it took everyday. They have met many times before, Their souls a thousand years old They have many names they go by But only they know. It's a secret they keep from many A blessing that is theirs, and theirs only. A golden cord tied around their souls This bounds them to each other for all eternity. You are my sadness You are the happy You are my greatest strength You are my downfall You are the music You are the song You are the compassion You are the light You are the darkness You are the night You are the great friend You are the lover You are the kind You are the treasure You are my laughs and you are my tears You are why I'm afraid to fail and you are my dreams. I walked home against the violent winds The tire swing swung violently on the tree Rain started to pour, there was no peace in my mind. I looked back at the house I've come to hate. How can one hope in such a place? I'm a nightingale in a cage, the world will never hear my song. Perhaps if I remain hopeful things will change? Maybe the gods will pity me in this place? Is this really all life had to offer me? How many times do I have to fight to be free? I fought so hard, and until today I was fighting. After a war, comes another. There's no end to it. I feel like as if I am already in my hell. Doomed to suffer, then reborn again with the same fate. Over and over again, pain enters this life. Over and over again, there's no end to it. Perhaps if I tried hard enough, I thought. I tried and tried, and still, nothing was reaped. It's hopeless isn't it, I stared up in the clouds. There is no heaven after this, just darkness. Perhaps if I turned them off, the world will be quiet. Perhaps if I'm invisible, trouble will no longer hunt me down. Perhaps if I stopped being who I was, I wouldn't have to be so strong anymore. Perhaps if I let it all go, things will start to get better. "Perhaps if.." by Nadine Dorado Nothing more than the pretty face.I envy people who are free. I've always felt like a bird in a cage and up till now I still feel like it. I didn't want to make today a big deal, because honestly I don't think it is. There are people out there who don't have mothers that are hurting today, and I decided to be a little bit more sensitive about that this year. I'm thinking about stopping the advice column. Maybe I'm not really qualified as a person to give out any advice about life. Honestly, now that I think about it. When I started the blog, the floodgates of hell opened in my life, I am sinking in dark waters. Funny, water's always been my best element. Now I feel like I'm being punished by it's destructive side. I don't see waves in my life anymore, I see whirlpools and I feel like I'm lost inside the Bermuda Triangle or something. So maybe from hereon, I'll stop promoting this god forsaken blog and just put some personal entries on here. Today, I was walking around outside. It wasn't a nice, sunny day though. It was a glum, rainy day. I stood in the rain thinking about where I am in life. I looked back at the place I called home and realized that, I have never been so low in my life. I wasn't at all happy at the place I am now. And I admitted to myself, I am terrified. But there's a way, a way I won't have to feel any of it at all. I just need to turn it off. I just need to turn off my feelings, forget about everything and everyone and just not care anymore. That's the only way I think I will get past this part of my life. Otherwise, I'd go insane. Turn it off, something kept telling me. Just turn it OFF. |